I don't trust myself on this computer lately because I have only one thing on my mind. {I haven't been on Facebook since last week. That's a big deal!} We've been waiting for this for a very long time and it's super early to announce it, and I literally just found out on Friday, but four days is a long time to hold it in when you're this excited about something... We're going to have a baby!!
{Simple paper stars. So pretty. These are from a wedding but wouldn't they be cute above a baby's crib? Photo credit via Pinterest.}
I can't believe I can finally say it again. It feels like the most amazing gift and we're over the moon about it. I feel like we're so excited, it's not even funny. We just keep looking at each other and grinning like fools. It feels like we're love-struck teenagers. And, to be honest, it feels like when we found out we were expecting our first all over again. We're just so happy! But it hasn't fully sunk in because we both just keep saying, "I can't believe it. I can't believe it. Is this real?" :) We've wished for this for so long.
{Pretty dress and scarf. Love the entire outfit here: Photo credit via Pinterest.}
Carter will be 6, next month, and well over 6 1/2 when this baby arrives.
We need a baby.
I love babies! I just keep laughing that I'll get a newborn to cuddle and snuggle again. (And wake up in the middle of the night with -- YIKES. I'm in for a rude awakening. It's been a long time that I've had to lose sleep for any of my kids. Although, to be honest about the reality, it's the anxiety and post-partum depression that can stem from it that worries me the most. If you're new here, I had moderately-severe PPD with my last two.)
{Retro baby chair. Photo credit via Pinterest.}
I literally just found out a few days ago but when you wait this long for news like this, it's really hard to hold it in until you're further along. (I'm only four weeks.) I normally spread the news when I'm only six weeks, so really what's the difference? It was so fun because my sister, Gretchen (one of the twins), was out here when I found out. I just couldn't keep it a secret and called my mom immediately after finding out. Like, as in literally, right after I found out.
{Baby quilt made from vintage sheets. Photo credit via Pinterest.}
Over all these years, I've continued to keep an ongoing list of names. It's one of my favorite things about having a baby, getting to name them. I love choosing names. We're hoping to find something unique and special and it's all I can think about right now. With my other kids, we had a boy's and a girl's name picked out within the first half of the pregnancy. And, in fact, Nikayda's name was picked out long before we were even expecting.
We found out what we were having with Carter, for the first time. We plan to find out again when the time comes for this one, more than likely. I absolutely loved knowing what I was having. It was so nice for shopping and planning.
{Old Navy maternity dress. Photo credit via Pinterest.}
It's crazy! I feel like I just start giggling at random times in the past few days. I can't even believe it. It's such a blessing.
I feel like I don't have any baby stuff anymore. I've given a lot of my baby stuff to my sister, Sara, over the years. And sold stuff at garage sales. So I'm excited to start picking things up over the coming months. Mostly, I just need a car seat and a baby sling and then all the little stuff.
{Beautiful Swedish vintage style nursery. Photo credit via Pinterest.}
I kept my vintage wooden high chair. And, in fact, found another metal retro one this summer garage saling that I couldn't resist. I still have my porta-crib and my small baby crib, my Baby Bjorn carrier and my single jogging stroller. (The baby carrier was always a little big for me. I'm short and have a short torso so it always worked better for Mark than me. That's why I want a sling this time.) But I feel like my views have changed so much as far as the things I need. I feel like so much of the baby stuff is just a product of commercialism and you really don't need much to have a happy baby. I mean, you need plenty of stuff, but you don't need every gadget out there, is what I'm trying to say.
I've also been collecting vintage baby clothes over the years. I always have. And I'm excited to look for more. I collect both boy's and girl's clothes. If I don't use them, they can always go in the junk shop.
{Handmade Sweater Balls. Photo credit via Pinterest.}
I can't believe I'm even talking about all this! It's just so exciting.
{Zigzag jumpsuit. Photo credit via Pinterest.}
I've always loved being pregnant. Once I get past the first twelve weeks. I always get really, really sick from about week 6 to week 12 or 13. So I have a couple of weeks before I'll start feeling anything. I was in the hospital twice for iv's due to dehydration with Nikayda but luckily not with the boys. Hoping for a good first trimester this time but only time will tell. Crossing my fingers! I'm mentally preparing myself for it to be bad...but hoping for the best!
Seriously... How do you keep that a secret when you've waited so long? I'll let everyone else (namely the *ahem* older generation) feel cautiously optimistic since it's so early. I'm diving in head first with happiness! We're so thrilled. I told Mark the other night that I feel all sparkly because I'm so happy right now.

