{Daily read-aloud to me with a vintage Dick & Jane book. (I was sitting in the chair.) I love coming across them at garage sales and thrifts for this purpose!}
My skin flared up something crazy again this weekend. This time after I had coffee (and possibly the salsa and the red pepper hummus I ate, as well). But I know I flared up after having coffee other times in these past three months because I've only had it about three times during that time and every time I got worse. Yet, on Sunday afternoon while Mark as enjoying his usual Thermos of coffee, I just thought it looked so good and drank two cups. And it was! But my body didn't agree for some reason.
This thing is quite bizarre in that I've been noticing that certain things I eat are causing it to flare up. And it's not just one thing like I was suspecting in the beginning.
I started using antihistamines a few weeks ago and I've needed them nearly every day since - except last week my skin finally began to clear up and was the best it's been in weeks and weeks and I was able to go a few days without them - until I had that coffee/salsa/hummus (?). I'm sure more than anything that it's food-related but 'why' and 'what' are still the questions.
I was tested for fungal and candida infections and I have neither of those. A rash can be a sign of each of those and several people have mentioned them to me so I made sure to ask when I was in. Speaking of, I just want to say thank you again to everyone who has taken the time to message me with suggestions and their own experiences. It really means a lot to me! And I feel like one way or another, it will lead to a resolution of all this - because each of you who offers suggestions/experiences gets me thinking about different things that may be the issue here or even may not be (like candida and fungal infections). It also helps knowing I'm not alone because I do sometimes get all that emotional stuff from feeling so itchy or uncomfortable on the days when it flares up bad. But I'm still optimistic that we'll figure this out eventually! Nothing lasts forever, right?
Because it flared up again this weekend, Mark and I did a lot of discussing and reflecting and I am now taking the heavy-dose steroids for relief. Albeit temporary as this thing seems to come and go... but I'll enjoy it while I'm getting it! Today is Day 2 of a 5 Day dose of heavier steroids and it's already dramatically different - inflammation is way down and it's barely itchy at all! Never mind that I was acting all crazy emotional/crabby today right along with my baby who is getting them with me (because I'm nursing). She goes from a happy baby to a monster baby, on steroids. (; But at least we get more snuggle time that way (she is normally not a snuggler, this one).
I wouldn't bat an eye about taking them at this point if it weren't for that... I'm not happy that she's getting such a strong dose of them with me. But our doctor (chiro) reassured me that short-term like this is okay. So, that made me feel a little better about doing it. (I know some will get it and some won't - but I don't even take acetaminophen ever, whether I'm nursing or not. --Although, since cutting out sugar and most grains/wheat and dairy and processed foods, I don't get headaches like I used to. I used to get them all the time.)
This whole hives thing really makes me realize how important it is for me to keep working on getting healthy. I have a long way to go but I'm not giving up! I wasn't working out in the past two months because of discomfort but when things calmed down the first time, nearly three weeks ago now, I started working out every day again (taking Sundays off to rest my muscles) for 30 minutes doing cardio (with some stretching and yoga, too).
I didn't work out at all last year. And in December I worked out the entire month and it felt so good to get back at it, both physically and mentally. (And then I started getting these hives so I hit a little road block for a bit.) I need to work out for my mental health just as much as the physical. It's just making it a habit that I always struggle with.
I'm not a fit person by nature (but, by golly, I'm going to get there!) and I have never exercised consistently my entire life until recent years and I would love to lose (more than) a few pounds but weight loss itself has never been my main goal. It just doesn't motivate me even though I would love to be back in my pre-pregnancy jeans from when I lost the weight just before I got pregnant this time around.
My goal is to feel healthy. That's what keeps me going and what motivates me to exercise. And feeling the difference in my endurance from barely being able to do a rep of jumping jacks in the beginning of December to being able to do them the entire time with the trainer on the video I'm following is a reminder that something is happening even if I don't feel it in my jeans yet. So, that's what keeps me going right now.
Working out is hard. But I've discovered that it's also something I enjoy doing. Mark's so good about giving me tough-love when I start to feel like giving up (because as I said above, it's not natural for me and I am the pro at making excuses not to do it!). He knows how much I want this - and reminds me that I can do it and I can't use excuses like there's no time in the day because I home school or want to work on my shop. (Because working on my shop is way more fun than exercising once school is done for the day!) If I want to be healthy, I need to fight for it.
Now, after a few weeks, it's beginning to feel nearly routine again. I actually look forward to it. I did a workout video (on YouTube) that had kick-boxing recently - a first for me. So many of my friends have done kick-boxing over the years but I'd never done it before. I got a lot of suggestions on Facebook recently from friends, too - and I'm looking forward to trying different things to keep a variety going. If you have a favorite workout suggestion, I'd love to hear from you, too!